Well, this week has been a little bit of an up and down one, but I think, overall, it’s better than it was. God has shown Himself faithful in carrying me through the week and all the trials it held.
God is amazing. He always knows exactly what I need and when I need it. He knows exactly how to pick me up and get me back on my feet. Even though it’s been a rough week, I can still smile. God has allowed me to make progress this week, and that is probably one of the things I need most to be able to get out of my low points.
What do you mean by progress, you might ask? Well, pretty much anything. Even if it’s small. God allowed me to get most of my loads for work booked by Tuesday so the rest of the week was fairly uneventful. That allowed me to do more things around the house. I was able to catch up on all the laundry and even keep real meals on the table all week. Those two things right there call for a celebration! But I was also able to get some extra work done on homeschool stuff and finish grading all the papers I had been putting off for way too long. I was able to make a list of some things that are in our storage area that I need to clean out and get rid of. We have had everything we own in storage for the past two years. I’m pretty sure we don’t need most of the stuff in there if we’ve lived without it for this long. I was able to make a list of things we can clean out and either throw in the dumpster or take to the dump.
I was even able to find some newborn clothes that we will (hopefully) need. I say hopefully because I tend to have rather large babies and we don’t usually need the newborn stuff. My first son came home in a newborn sleeper and that was the last piece of newborn clothing he wore. The other kids weren’t quite as bad, but they were pretty short time periods in the newborn stuff.
One other thing that I’ve been doing is making a list of all the projects that I want to accomplish. Some for around the little rental unit we are in and other projects that I just want to try for something to do. I’m really good at making lists. Now let’s see if I can cross anything off those lists!
I’m even hoping that, before I go to work tonight, my entire house will be clean. That’s my goal for today. We’ll see if that happens or not. I have a few “helpers” that aren’t always the easiest to direct…
So, yes, small victories like these help to cheer me up. There are few things that cheer me up more than making progress and seeing things get done. I love making my “to-do” list and scratching things off. It’s always a good day when the whole list has scribble marks through each activity. It’s even better when you finish everything and keep going. You have to add things to the list just to be able to scratch them off. I love that!
But, my favorite part of this week was my answered prayer. I asked God to work a miracle for our family and show it so that all of us could see it. You know what happened? Something that I should have seen a long time ago. This little baby growing inside me is the miracle that God showed our family this week. You might say that’s been there for a while now, how is that a miracle to see just this week?? Well, God made it very visible to my family this week. Yes, I was already showing in my belly. I have gained quite a few inches in my midsection already. There’s no denying that. But, the little kicks and squirms that I had been feeling for quite a few weeks now became very evident to my family. This week, the baby kicks are strong enough that my husband and all the kids were able to feel them. That was my and my family’s miracle that I asked God to show me.
This little miracle has been growing for 23 weeks now. It won’t be long before we are able to meet this little one, and I can’t wait. The kids are getting so excited. But, to see the looks on each little face as the baby kicked at their little hands on my stomach, that was what made my week better. My little miracles all watching and feeling the newest miracle. It’s priceless. God knows what He is doing. There is no denying that. He can make something as simple as a baby kick fix everything and make all my cares go away. Yes, the cares do come back, but every time I feel a little flutter or kick, I’m reminded of what God has done for me and for my family. He has done so much for us, and I have absolutely no reason to be down about one hiccup in life. God already knows what we can handle and how He is going to care for us. I don’t need to even think about it.
So, every time it feels like the world is crashing down around you, or you feel like there is no way up from where you are. Every time you end up back at square one with no next step in sight, just remember that God may already have your miracle in the works. You might just be overlooking it. You might be carrying your miracle right in front of your face, and not even think twice about it. But God knows. He knows what you need. He knows when you need it. God knows.
I don’t know about you, but I’m so thankful that God is the one who runs the universe. I know for sure that I’m glad it’s not me that has to balance all that. I would mess it up in a heartbeat. I have enough trouble keeping my little world afloat. I’m so thankful that God can handle everything and He has me in the palm of His hand. I am always safe in God’s hands. I just need to remember to stay there and not jump out. I will get nowhere if I leave His side. Life will always throw us curveballs and stupid happenings, but God has it. He knows. HE KNOWS.
I hope my rough week was one that could bring some encouragement to each of you. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and remember to look for the miracles that God has for you. You never know. They may be right in front of your face.